2000-04-08

what is your heart's deepest desire? how do you know when something is right for you?

i believe in my intentions, if not in my actions. i can speak for the honesty of my heart and intention. it's the only thing that keeps me alive and sane, sometimes.

chris and i went to the fillmore. he said he would go camping with me on june 16th and 17th. on those days it will be one year since the abortion. i am still wondering when the sun will come.

ah. watching oprah is making me sappy. i was set out to do a euphoric entry on how i met a boy tonight! he works at the fillmore. he is my age and knows the capitals to every nation under the sun. he is really really cute. chris had to psych me into talking to him. i went outside and asked some random guy, "what does one say to a guy that they think is cute?".

"well. it doesn't matter what you say. if a beautiful girl comes up to you and says anything at all, you are going to be happy."

fillmore-guy took my number. we will see if he calls me.

ooof. big day surrounding me today, i will think and write more tomorrow.