2001-06-18

no matter how hard i try, it always seems to be monday again. dammit.

this weekend was a ridiculous blur of nothingness, with some sparse highlights along the way. mike worked saturday and sunday, so i was pretty much left to my own devices.

saturday i hung out with chris by our lonesomes for the first time in ages, and it was very very nice. we have this weird ability to spend eons apart and then still come together and have lots to say. we intellectually carouse about our relationships, these days, and always the usual "what to do with this life" discussions. i miss my friend very much.

unfortunately i had to leave him early on saturday evening, since mike called and told me he had to be at work at 5 in the morning on sunday, so i felt obligated to go over to his house and offer up proper sex in order to mitigate any unappreciable rise in his stress levels due to the fact that by friday he will have worked twelve days in a row.

that done, we went to sleep, i arose early the next day, and bought groceries, went home, cooked, and waited for him to show up.

eating, sex, beer. the usual. we had more conversations about "the future" and they went pretty well; i asked him if we ought to live together before we got married, and he said yes.

i, personally, am a little frightened of the notion. i've never lived with a boyfriend before, and although he and i spend every night and most of our waking moments outside of work together, i think there is something symbolically different about sharing a common space, that makes "living together" a bigger deal than it seems on the surface.

oh, i don't know. i suppose i will have to worry about that when the time comes. though i get the feeling that the time is coming up relatively soon.

in other specatcular news, i have lost 6 pounds. this makes me feel good, i must say.

mmmyup. that's about it. boring, huh.