2000-08-24

i am bothered to no ends by women putting on makeup in the morning on muni and bart, and i am not quite sure why.

i mean, i wear makeup. i bask in the glow of my own vanity, and play supermodel with myself in front of the mirror while i am getting dressed.... but taking it out in public? that's a different story. my first inclination, when i witness these women slop, brush, line and fluff their way to "day faces", is to think that they are WAY MORE VAIN than i am...

then i reconsider and realize: if i am the one who can't even bear to walk out of the house without makeup on, then i must be the one suffering esteem and vanity issues, not them.

either that, or i am utterly incapable of drawing a straight line on my face when rattling along ill-kempt muni tracks at 50 miles an hour.

other than that life is, oh, you know, fun-flavored and cheeky fun. alex's gf asked me if i would like to go for coffee, which i was remarkably not surprised by. i haven't decided if i shall go or not.... i am trying to decide how best to not be a pain in the ass for everyone (including myself) and i am not sure what decision best behooves that motivation. i'm dead fucking curious tho...

mmmmmmm. things are pretty boring at the moment. contemplating redesigns for part of sn00t.org and for paying in pain too. and when THAT is the most interesting thing occupying your mind, you just KNOW that there has to be something lacking.

but i'm not bored or depressed. go figure.