2001-06-22

i found out yesterday that the best way to celebrate the beginning of summer and the unfolding of the longest day of the year is to get drunk.

now, you may be saying to yourself (assuming that you talk to yourself, which you very well may) that it seems that alcohol is a key that seems to unlock many of my troubled doors of living and perception.

i would say that you are quite right!

i had a bit of a mental breakdown last night... i talked to my mom about my plans to go back to school, and she was giving me the whole "are you sure its such a good idea?" spiel, which i have received from EVERYONE in my family. so there is zilch zero no support on that front for my decision, which doesn't really surprise me, since they never seem to agree with anything i do anyways...

but this is all pretty ironic, since back in the day, they used to tell me that they would be totally supportive of anything that i chose to do, and that if i wanted to go back to school to develop my writing/mind/whatever, they would do anything they could to help.

now that i am actually taking this step, they are all naysayers and blah-makers, which is driving me pretty nuts. the only one who keeps saying "go for it" is mike.

its so hard, sometimes, to twist your life around and go into a totally new direction; which i am about to do. i'm about to rack up 25k in school loans and such, and come out on the other side with a totally unmarketable masters degree in english literature. all because i want to! all because it feels like the right thing to do!

eh, fuck em. i'm gonna do what i want, and anyone who doesn't like it can go and screw themselves.