2000-03-23

much to the dismay of my pita and my diary, i have been quite busy.

work is going quite well. my job change was quite palatable and the guy i am working under knows alot and helps me learn alot, which is everything and more than a person could ask for. so i have been FOCUSING! and not writing in my diary!

the masses may sob, but it is I who weep the most.

skaterboy called me last night.

we are hanging out on friday. and yah, i was really excited. and yah, i was trying really hard NOT to be excited.

but i was.

after we got off of the phone i turned up my new HUM (electra 2000!) loud loud loud and smoked a cigarette and bounced around the house on my leg that i think is broken or something.

but i cared not.

cuz i was happy.

even tho i know that this sort of dumbass happies is the sort of thing that precipitates the depressions as well, i couldn't help it.

*sigh* he's just so rad. and i do like him. i am not actively trying to NOT like him. just like him in a cooler, more emotionally efficient way.

whatever that means.

i spent alot of time last night wondering if i would ever get to sleep with him again.

and i still can't say NO.

which is good, i guess.

i dunno.

work.

now.

me.

update::811pm:: what in god's name am i going to wear tomorrow?