2000-09-24

i rearranged my whole bedroom.

with that, i feel i have purged a great number of positional and situational memory demons... mind-boggling, the number of images and words swirling about in my brain that i would much rather expunge for eternity...

this weekend: 'eh'.

i had a brief conversation with joey on saturday. i wanted to con him into hanging out with me, since i was wrought, wound and bored. but alas, no joey for me... he was out making extra money valet parking, of all things.

his old friend from "back home" is skaterboy's boss.

small fucking world, it is, it is.

he said last time he saw skaterboy he just stared at him oddly, and skaterboy stared back, wondering why joey was staring at him so oddly. i laughed, and found it odd. ... seems skaterboy has a new gurl he is dragging around with him. godspeed.

hrm. i worry, at points, about this whole situation with joey. he is so plainly a drama craver, and i think i have excised a majority of the drama from myself for the time being... what i really want, what i really crave, is a guy to lay around with, get fucked up with, lots of sex, sitting around in the sun, relaxed conversations, easy times... i know in my heart that is what i want... i've had enough turbulence to last me a long time... i just want some PEACE...

i think joey will probably be quite bored with that, if he isn't already.

at any rate, he is moving to oakland in a few days, which takes him out of my neighborhood... and quite feasibly out of my world. i dunno. maybe not. maybe i care. maybe i don't. i don't get too riled up about much of anything lately, with the exception of last wednesday...

luscious jackson loves me today.

i don't love anyone today.