2000-09-21

ummm. today is alot better. i sent a huge message to my newest email pen pal who is off touring mexico on a fanta-sponsered fingerboard thing.... made a few successful ASP tweaks...

some happy little things.

i had very stinky tuna pasta salad for lunch.

lighter thieves are the worst ever.... how come EVERYTIME i lend out a lighter to someone they NEVER give it back?

i always give everyone back *their* lighters.

rat bastards.

the past two days i have smoked a pack of cigarettes a day. stress factors galore... in the morning i have to gallavant down to the 7/11 down the street, and it is always full of spastic, hyper-hormonated teenagers stopping off to buy candy and slurpees before school starts. EIGHT in the morning and they are kicking back cherry coke slurpees like there's no tomorrow... and today i did something that made me feel SOOOOOOO lame and old.... as i watched the adolescent sugar orgy going on around me while in line for cigarettes, i thought to myself: "i wonder if their parents know that they are eating and drinking all this shit."

eeeeew.

got an email from Joey today. he called me "baby-o" which makes me feel like an oat heavy breakfast cereal, but he was sweet. says he has new artsy fartsiness to show me; guess i will be seeing him again.

i do want to see him again. i do.

"we would be no better" -s/k.

ooooooo. my "sister" is coming to visit me in two weeks. i haven't seen her in TWO YEARS, and we have so much to talk about and do. i feel all happy and excited about it.... i love her so much... she's tried, trusted and true.... and along with chris and my mom, one of the three people in this whole big wide world who know me really really well.

yayayayaya.

happier today.